Wonder

​I still wonder, the days of my past.

Where the whiskey smelled and you  smiled, where I was less of story teller more of story maker.

When my skin brushed aganist you and wonder what would I do if not be with you? 

The wine stains on my favorite shirt when you broke my heart and cigarettes burns on my table cloth, answer my loneliness in less cruel ways.

And, I wonder what would I be doing if i was with you at this moment.

Broken down, inked your name, 

Kissed my whiskey, tasted your vein.

I mix the the drop of your blood in every glass as your dead body sleeps beneath my bed and bar.

I so wonder, if you would’ve stayed alive now but,

The betrayed kept aching my heart, my walls heard my cries but you never answered my calls.

My body stays awake and my brain goes to sleep. 

You will be around me, now and forever. 

Whether just adding drops of your blood in my glass of shots or

Just staying awake with my midnight thought.

I still wonder, what would us be doing 

If I wasn’t the who murdered your guts.

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Ravan

​The Ravan, as portrayed wasnt that bad, 

He had all his faces out in front of the whole crowd, all his true colours.

If he had the strength to kidnap sita, He also was a man of his words of not touching her even though, he could’ve.

It was Ram’s potential to have her Sita back but, It was the Ravan, man enough to not to do any wrong means to her. 

If the story is compared, even though Ravan’s still exist the Ravan now aren’t even worth calling Ravan, because they’re worst.

I am

​Yes, 

I’m the guy who can’t take his shirt off,

I’m the guy who abuses and swears as if its my mother tongue.

I’m the guy who has grown above judgements and taunts.

I’m the guy who has seen and been through breakups. 

I’m the guy who has begged to save relations.

I’m the guy who has tried to make people smile even, If I was bleeding.

I’m the guy who has lived in shadows and in brightness.

I’m the guy who pulls jokes on you and let you pull jokes on me. 

I’m the guy who would agree to have a caring heart which is buried deep down.

I’m the guy who has cold soul and hot head

I’m the guy who flunks, gets back up and passes the test.

I have never said, I don’t hurt or stuff. I do, I’m a human but,I hold the power to overcome where I fuck up and destroy whoever fucks me up.

I’m the guy, who is not going to change, I’m going to be meYes, 

I’m the guy who can’t take his shirt off,

I’m the guy who abuses and swears as its my mother tongue.

I’m the guy who has grown above judgements and taunts.

I’m the guy who has seen and been through breakups. 

I’m the guy who has begged to save relations.

I’m the guy who has tried to make people smile even, If I was bleeding.

I’m the guy who has lived in shadows and in brightness.

I’m the guy who pulls jokes on you and let you pull jokes on me. 

I’m the guy who would agree to have a caring heart which is buried deep down.

I’m the guy who is cold and hot, 

I’m the guy who flunks, gets back up and passes the test.

I’m the guy who can never set his hair.

I’m just a guy who has all the fuss about him.. 

I have never said, I don’t hurt or stuff. I do, I’m a human but,I hold the power to overcome where I fuck up and destroy whoever fucks me up.

I’m the guy, who is not going to change, I’m going to be me, proud of my body and the way I look, laughing in your face, shinning in every case and running every race life puts me in. Never quitting, that’s my word, dawg! 

Fight song

Fight song

So tonight I guess I’ll write my last song because everything I loved is torn apart. You know it was like a feather on my face was replaced by a knife in my chest. It’s one of the days when everything is going down. Can’t even get on a liquor because I’ve been out of money in this lone town. They say haters don’t wanna see you win but at least they are better than friends who don’t wanna see you hustle And everytime I try to get over this ocean gets deeper everytime I try to climb my legs give up in the middle. I’m praying for my feet to fail me not I’m praying to Lord for my one last shot. I have beem dying from adolescent, I’m living for the people I never met, and I’m hating people I see everyday.. But this Is not the end if you’re expecting much more sadness I guess you don’t know, this is my fight song, it’s time to get back up right now. Rains gone and I have long gone moved on and when I see the smile on my face I know the value of pain I have paid. So if you feel low at times let yourself know you’re writing your fight song yeah your fight Song. Let the world know your fight song let them sing along c’man sing along this is your fight song.

Butterfly.

Butterfly.

Maybe you have nothing today? But its not the way it can go on. You can change it, One morning you just wake up and you’re like no I don’t want to live like this anymore. It may take time to find your path, the morning you got up and the morning you apply it in your life may not be same but keep that thought alive you gonna make it.

I know how it feels when you’re missing them they past from the hall ways and you Hang your head staring at ground wishing they’d realise you miss them? But again its not what always happens. The person you loved maybe wasn’t worth your love. Instead of blaming yourself for all the cause why don’t we act like maybe they don’t deserve truth in this fake world? Remember even if you’re a butterfly you can survive hurricanes, You have occupied a space In this world don’t let this world give your space a bad name or should i say name of a loser. Its easy said than done but if everything comes easy You’d just say I made it But, when you go through rains, storms you can proudly say with that smile on your face, no ache in your heart and mind Ignited to conquer more that you made it and you’re ready to take up more. You’re a butterfly surviving the storms.

FAITH

FAITH

Faith.

This world has lost its faith in humanity we need a band aid for our earth, missiles and wars enough of this shit. We see humans but no humanity, so together We cry. So together We die.

Lately many people lost their closed ones in a missile launched on #Mh17 it was a plane carrying dreams of many. We dont realise unless it happens to us. Heartless people have a better life because they see no pain. 2 days later we don’t remember stuff. Its all dead and gone. Babies miss their mom. So much fear, before stepping out of house i pray 100 times before i take a step out. Its a cold ass place i have lost my faith. And finally I’ll lose myself. Government sucks, politicians smell like shit. I try to divert mind and look at the good side of the world but, the nature is cut off and there is nothing left to look forward too. Teens are getting pregnant, sex so easy to get. World needs more of loyalty and less of artificial care.

And the worst part is teenagers know drugs ain’t good they’re mature enough to understand still foolish enough to do that shit nothing but the country is getting weak. Drama, Media, All just point out on celebrities. They dont show us the real truth of how politicians make fool of us. Beggars sell their daughters for money. Face the truth, Females are raped, why no men realize women are the reason you’re born you live. She gives life Respect women, Stand for women, Stand for humanity. Don’t be the one acting like a faggot. This society sometimes makes me choke. You can’t hear birds’ chirps no more. Rape, Racism, Terrorist attacks? Is not what we need. Somebody has to put smile on sad faces. Some Light in the dark world. Maybe no one for now but I’m trying my best to restore your faith…

Guts!

Guts!

Today after a while I looked at myself staring in the mirror asking myself how I am supposed to get out of here. I see my tears roll down my face why am I so depressed? I’m only good for a sad song I guess, but I got to climb out of this mess I need to turn my life around and take every moment and earn it no matter what happens in the end, I can’t lie to myself at least I can say it to myself I tried, when I die I can say, “you can’t ignore the fact that I fought”. So when the rain drops today I’m not going to run for shelter I’m going to disappear my tear, my fears and failure in the drops of rain. Every time you tell me I can’t is the reason I’d go for it. Change myself for the better I guess I’d make it today. When you talk to me about strangers telling how shitty i was I’m going to be much more than that because my heart is pumping like never before. Never had no friends, never had no one to hit me up and ask what it feels like? Guess what I’m forgetting everything forgiving everything and everyone no more holding in Now I know the price I need to pay to get where I want to reach and to see what people can’t see. Its only people who are crazy can change the world for better than I’m crazier than your whole family put together. I’m recognizing myself all over again call it rebirth or recovery I was down when I was down no one bothered to helped me out now I’ve decided no more backing down And as soon as I finished writing this the ray of sun hits my face as hope and I smiled, shattered life ain’t nothing like that shattered love I’ve been there done that. Friends fucking you up I know how it feels to be there too but I guess it’s what makes you, molds you, beats the shit out of you, makes you feel your glory your power, your strength, your Armour would never look good shining as much as it looks after getting back up and fighting.